Despite it being only 5 weeks into my 12 week challenge, DP and I are now very much trying again for a baby. I have been trying to work things out and if things are 'normal' (and that's a big if!) then I should ovulate this weekend, and so am really fertile now.
My body is trying to confuse me, I think - this morning I feel exactly like I did when I was first pregnant. I'm constipated, my head is swimming and I feel sick/starving hungry/sick in cycles. It feels like some kind of reminder of what I'm trying to get to.
Bit achy today as I skipped a lot in the park yesterday morning. Was planning to do the same this morning but stayed in bed and DTD with DP instead! Which was a bit more fun, frankly.
Thursday, 18 March 2010
Tuesday, 16 March 2010
5 weeks in...
Have just realised I'm 5 weeks into the 12 weeks. I feel like I'm doing ok; the trip to South Africa did screw things up a bit but I'm trying so hard to be good now. And now that I'm on a higher dose of Metformin I do have to be more careful anyway, or I get a terribly upset stomach.
I am pleased that I'm at 15 stone now - on the scales this morning it was wavering like it was going to be just below, but it settled on it. I'd love to get it just under by next week's weigh in.
I really feel like I'm going to meet my target. Fingers crossed.
I am pleased that I'm at 15 stone now - on the scales this morning it was wavering like it was going to be just below, but it settled on it. I'd love to get it just under by next week's weigh in.
I really feel like I'm going to meet my target. Fingers crossed.
Monday, 15 March 2010
the end of the reign of vegetables
The detox is over. Really stuck to it, and it's pretty much the first time I've done something like this and actually stuck to it properly. So I'm very pleased with myself. So yesterday was the first day not on it, and it was fun...at first. We had DP's kids and we had hot cross buns for breakfast (I just had one, they all had two!!!), then tuna mayo sandwiches for a picnic lunch at a farm - where we saw tiny, tiny newborn lambs...aw! - and then roast chicken for dinner. I had a glass of wine with dinner, then a glass of cava when DP got back from dropping the kids off at their mums. We had been together for 3 years yesterday so were celebrating. DP bought me a lovely silver ring with a heart on it that I had admired in a shop months ago. And then we had some chocolate.
And then I was sick. And had the runs. The Met belly hit with a vengeance and I just felt dreadful. The worst was when we went to bed and I started having palpitations and was incredibly light headed and was totally freezing. It was awful. Still feel wobbly this morning and my stomach is still a bit upset, so not fun at all. I must be more careful with what I eat with the Metformin, and I'm not having more than one drink again - I've noticed before that I just can't deal with more than one, but this was the worst.
So a lovely fruit salad with pumpkin seeds and honey for breakfast this morning, and homemade carrot and orange soup for lunch and just generally keeping an eye on the diet.
On a positive front, though, the detox did get me back to the starting weight and more - I'm now at 15 stone. I want soooo much to get down to below 15...
And then I was sick. And had the runs. The Met belly hit with a vengeance and I just felt dreadful. The worst was when we went to bed and I started having palpitations and was incredibly light headed and was totally freezing. It was awful. Still feel wobbly this morning and my stomach is still a bit upset, so not fun at all. I must be more careful with what I eat with the Metformin, and I'm not having more than one drink again - I've noticed before that I just can't deal with more than one, but this was the worst.
So a lovely fruit salad with pumpkin seeds and honey for breakfast this morning, and homemade carrot and orange soup for lunch and just generally keeping an eye on the diet.
On a positive front, though, the detox did get me back to the starting weight and more - I'm now at 15 stone. I want soooo much to get down to below 15...
Friday, 12 March 2010
I'm on a detox, yah?
I'm on day 3 of the detox now. Halfway through day 1 I got a headache that didn't shift until the end of day 2; and my body was totally rebelling against what I was trying to eat - I made a Morrocan vegetable stew that I've made before and enjoyed, but I was gagging as I cooked it and could hardly eat any of it! Was saying to DP last night that it's just as well I could have chicken etc today or I would be giving up.
This morning I blearily made my way to the bathroom mirror, ready to pluck the overnight hairs that had appeared. Except - there were none. I usually have to spend about 10 minutes sorting out the little blighters, but not a single appearance. And then I noticed that I haven't got any spots. I'm on my period and am usually pretty pimply around this time, but they've all gone. I haven't had skin as clear as this since I was about 9.
It's like being smacked in the face - these side effects of PCOS are within my control. I couldn't follow this as a general diet - not enough protein! - but I'm going to try so hard to incorporate some things in to my life, properly, and not just saying one thing and doing another.
Also, even though I've just increased my Metformin dose, the Met belly has gone too, hurray!
This morning I blearily made my way to the bathroom mirror, ready to pluck the overnight hairs that had appeared. Except - there were none. I usually have to spend about 10 minutes sorting out the little blighters, but not a single appearance. And then I noticed that I haven't got any spots. I'm on my period and am usually pretty pimply around this time, but they've all gone. I haven't had skin as clear as this since I was about 9.
It's like being smacked in the face - these side effects of PCOS are within my control. I couldn't follow this as a general diet - not enough protein! - but I'm going to try so hard to incorporate some things in to my life, properly, and not just saying one thing and doing another.
Also, even though I've just increased my Metformin dose, the Met belly has gone too, hurray!
Tuesday, 9 March 2010
onwards and upwards
By now I should be on day 2 of the 4-day detox but I decided at the weekend to postpone starting it till tomorrow, as DP's parents are coming round for dinner to celebrate his mum's birthday tonight and I didn't really want to be sitting with a plate of lentils while they all ate DP's delicious tandoori chicken. But we went to the supermarket at the weekend and got everything I need, have the menus all planned out and I'm feeling confident I can do it - it is only 4 days after all, and it doesn't look too ridiculous.
We were down at our old house in London packing it up over the weekend as we are moving next month - we've been renting for 6 months while we sold the London house and bought a new one. Got lots done but eating healthily was not on the cards, oh dear...tricky to cook in the old house as there's nothing much left in the kitchen, so we bought pizza at the supermarket on Friday night, had chips on Saturday night and then when we got back here on Sunday late and having had no lunch we caved in and went to the Indian takeaway for curry. Oops. However, on Saturday morning I walked miles in London (enjoying doing the touristy thing along the South Bank now I no longer live there!) and we also went for quite a long walk on Hampstead Heath on Sunday afternoon. Followed by the pub - where I had a diet coke rather than a big glass of wine. When I weighed myself this morning I realised I'd shifted three of the pounds I put on last week - would have done more, I'm sure, if I hadn't eaten so much crap over the weekend, but am pleased anyway as I thought I'd just be the same.
Am hopeful that the detox will at least take me back to the weight I started at!!!
We were down at our old house in London packing it up over the weekend as we are moving next month - we've been renting for 6 months while we sold the London house and bought a new one. Got lots done but eating healthily was not on the cards, oh dear...tricky to cook in the old house as there's nothing much left in the kitchen, so we bought pizza at the supermarket on Friday night, had chips on Saturday night and then when we got back here on Sunday late and having had no lunch we caved in and went to the Indian takeaway for curry. Oops. However, on Saturday morning I walked miles in London (enjoying doing the touristy thing along the South Bank now I no longer live there!) and we also went for quite a long walk on Hampstead Heath on Sunday afternoon. Followed by the pub - where I had a diet coke rather than a big glass of wine. When I weighed myself this morning I realised I'd shifted three of the pounds I put on last week - would have done more, I'm sure, if I hadn't eaten so much crap over the weekend, but am pleased anyway as I thought I'd just be the same.
Am hopeful that the detox will at least take me back to the weight I started at!!!
Thursday, 4 March 2010
naughty!!!!!!
Well I was a bad girl last week. Off in South Africa for work, which was a really great trip actually. I realised it was going to be very tricky to take the Metformin (12 hour flights/clambering around unfinished stadiums with no working toilets etc) and so I dropped it for the week. And then because I wasn't taking it, I had a few drinks. And then a few more. And lots of very nice food. And, you've guessed it, I've put on weight. Six pounds! I was a bit shocked at how much.
I bought a magazine (She) to read on the plane, and it had an article about Zita West and her fertility diet. In it was a 4-day detox to kick start your fertility. I am going to give it a try from Monday-Thursday next week. It didn't look too desperately awful, lots of lentils and beans and stuff for three of the days, and you can add white meat and fish on one of the days. It seemed like it would be worth a go.
Another naughty thing I've done is upped my Metformin dose to 1500mg, from yesterday. My GP is great, but she wouldn't put me on more as 1000mg is what the healthcare trust around here recommend. All the research seems to show that 1500mg and above is where the drug will start to work, and I can't see the point of taking it and getting the side effects if its not actually doing any good. I feel rough, though, very dodgy tummy and so tired. But then, I'm working full time and have also taken on an extra job for a while to try and sort our financial situation out a a bit, so working 60-70 hours a week.
And another naughty thing...we ditched the condoms last night. And this morning. Aside from a 'but this will mean the Christmas baby we've been trying to avoid' from DP we haven't actually talked about it. But it looks like we are TTC again. I haven't had a period since coming off the pill so I think it will take a while anyway; but then we thought that last time and it happened within days.
If only...
I bought a magazine (She) to read on the plane, and it had an article about Zita West and her fertility diet. In it was a 4-day detox to kick start your fertility. I am going to give it a try from Monday-Thursday next week. It didn't look too desperately awful, lots of lentils and beans and stuff for three of the days, and you can add white meat and fish on one of the days. It seemed like it would be worth a go.
Another naughty thing I've done is upped my Metformin dose to 1500mg, from yesterday. My GP is great, but she wouldn't put me on more as 1000mg is what the healthcare trust around here recommend. All the research seems to show that 1500mg and above is where the drug will start to work, and I can't see the point of taking it and getting the side effects if its not actually doing any good. I feel rough, though, very dodgy tummy and so tired. But then, I'm working full time and have also taken on an extra job for a while to try and sort our financial situation out a a bit, so working 60-70 hours a week.
And another naughty thing...we ditched the condoms last night. And this morning. Aside from a 'but this will mean the Christmas baby we've been trying to avoid' from DP we haven't actually talked about it. But it looks like we are TTC again. I haven't had a period since coming off the pill so I think it will take a while anyway; but then we thought that last time and it happened within days.
If only...
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